In today’s post I thought that it would be a good idea to do a sort of ‘letter to my past self’ (I’m sure you all know that from title, it’s kind of hard to miss). I thought this would be a good idea since I wasn’t the most confident person whilst growing up, neither am I all that confident to this day but that’s besides the point. In a way I hope this is both interesting and possibily helpful. So, let’s get straight into it!
To my past self,
The main thing that I want you to know is that you aren’t alone in this world, no matter how alone you may feel at the time. Although you may feel as though the world is against you and that nothing is ever going to get better, then you’re wrong. You might be feeling all the things under the sun (sneaky Cheryl song reference there), whether that be due to personal reasons or because your apparent love life, but your feelings of sadness won’t last forever and that’s something that I can promise you now. Things do get better. Also, you’re not in love yet and that you’re feeling doesn’t last forever. You’re young, time is always the best healer in those cases, I know that for sure.
Just stay strong and hang in there. You always have books, music and Cheryl to keep you happy for the time being, oh and writing. Can’t forget writing as a way to escape the madness that we all call reality.
It’s also okay not to be okay. You’re not alone on that either. Everybody has their down days and it’s totally okay to be sensitive and feel your emotions. It’s okay to cry, to be angry with certain, and so on. It means you have feelings and emotions, it only makes you human after all.
Now onto your education/school years. You’re still young, please don’t forget that. You’re GCSEs don’t matter as much as think they do and you will exceed your expectations in some cases. Taking time to relax and do the things that you enjoy doing yourself, such as writing, is essential, even if you can only dedicate a short amount of time to it. Just remember to relax and not to stress as much. It’ll be okay and you will get into sixth form.
Sixth form. Ah, the dreaded sixth form. Like everybody said, it is a big step; even if you have taken some of your A-level subjects at GCSE. A-levels are definitely harder and you’ll definitely need to put more work in than you did at GCSE, but that’s okay. You can manage it. You just need to have belief in yourself. Although in your first year at sixth form you may not have done as well as you may have wanted to, that’s okay. It’s a lesson learnt and we all make mistakes. After all, the first year made you realise how hard you needed to work in order to get the grades that you’re more than capable of achieving, especially in your Sociology resit. I’m proud of you, your hard work and the outcome that only you had control of. Now for a well needed break.
During your time at sixth form there was a lot of drama. The drama is never left behind at high school, believe me now. But I’m glad that it didn’t distract you from you work too much. Just remember not to let people make you feel bad, it’s really not worth it. Any petty little arguments will most likely be forgotten by the next day anyway, so it doesn’t matter all that much.
The last thing is, don’t worry if you don’t know entirely what you want to do with your life. School constantly pressures you into the likes of university but as you know from experience it’s not for everyone, even if you are academically clever. But that’s okay because at least you tried, right? There’s no harm in trying, even if things don’t turn out the way that you planned. Trying is better than not trying at all, and you can’t deny that you didn’t give university a shot so I’m proud of you for that. Even though it is in the more recently in the past, it just goes to show that we are all constantly growing and changing.
It’s okay to not know what you want to do is what I’m trying to say, not everyone has their lives figured out and a set plan for the future and that’s perfectly okay. It takes trial and error, you never know what life might throw at you. So keep at it and hang in there. Things will work out eventually, whether that be soon or later on. You still have time. University will always be there if you ever want to go back to it because you’re never to old to go to university. Your happiness and wellbeing is important, just keep that in mind.
Question of the day: What’s one thing that you would tell your past self if you could? Let me know in the comments!
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