Lately I’ve not been feeling great. I’ve not been feeling great for a long, long time. Obviously I don’t feel down all of the time. Sometimes I’ll feel super positive and productive but still acknowledging the difficult situations around me. Other times, not so much.
Whilst I’m writing this post I don’t feel great. I don’t feel great at all, in fact I feel awful. It’s not just this year that I’ve felt this way, but today it seems to have hit breaking point like so many times before. Just when you think difficult situations can’t get worse, they do. And when you think you’ve hit rock bottom you go further down. Who knew that was even possible.
It’s not a recent thing. I’ve felt this way for a long, long while. It’s probably been years now but in the past I’ve vented how awful I’ve felt through tweets on my Twitter. Not that that helps necessarily because the difficult situations that started making me feel this low in the first place were still there, and they still are here but slightly different to how it was a few years back.
Being the type of person that’s very reserved I tend to keep a lot of my feelings and emotions to myself. I’m just not a very open person, I’m the total opposite in fact. I’m a very private which has it’s good and it’s bad qualities. Although I do prefer being more of a private person it definitely means that I find it difficult to open up to others. And if I do open to people about how I’m feeling then it’s most likely because I’ve hit breaking point.
As I’m finishing of this blog post it’s a week later now and my emotions have changed. I’m definitely not feeling on top of the world, but I’m feeling better than when I originally started typing this post up. No day is the same and my awful emotions don’t last forever. I have good days. I have bad days. I have average days. I have days where I feel on top of the world. But it’s okay to feel all these emotions out, whatever they may be.
It’s okay not to be okay. We all have good and bad days, but we should cherish the good days.
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