The title of this post is something that I ask myself quite often. As someone who someone who suffers from low self esteem it’s easy for my to get stuck in a rut of asking myself whether I am good enough and doubting my ability and myself as a person. Maybe it’s just me, but I’m a self critical person and I hardly give myself credit for any hard work that I do. This post is probably going to be a bit of a ramble but please bare with me on this one.
Now don’t get me wrong, there are good days and bad days like with anything. There are days when I’ll ask myself this question and I’ll be able to answer to shrug the creeping negativity off or answer more positively. But at the same time when the negativity comes out and I am very critical of myself – on those does I won’t feel good enough. I won’t feel like me.
This is exactly how I feel not so long ago at work. I had been in work for a couple of hours and an incident happened which I’m not going to go into detail about for many reasons. A few minutes later I ended up in the staff room in tears from something that, in my mind, was small. Either way my mind went to mush and an overload of negative thoughts ran through my mind during the rest of the day that I worked to the point where I found it difficult to compose myself. I thought I wasn’t good enough and that I was weak for crying (bearing in my mind that I hate crying in front of other people as it is). The day after, however, I was perfectly fine.
There are also times where I don’t feel good enough in terms of blogging. My blog is never going to be the best by no means, there are so many other great bloggers out there in the blogosphere, but I still appreciate it when people leave lovely comments on my posts. I’m probably the worst person for comparing myself to other people, and that’s exactly what I do with my blog. I can’t seem to help it sometimes but I’ll compare my blog and my writing to other bloggers within the community, it’s a bad habit that I need to get out of. Am I good enough for the blogging world? Of course, no matter how often I might think that I’m not.
Getting out of the rut of wondering whether you are good enough or not isn’t always easy, I’ll be the first to admit that. Sometimes, however, all you need is a good cry. After a good cry and I usually feel a lot better than beforehand. If this doesn’t help then don’t be ashamed to ask for a help from a friend or colleague, they’ll more than likely be willing to talk about how you’re feeling. Talking to others about how you’re feeling tends to alleviate the way you may be feeling. In any case, it’s always better to talk to people that keeping it bottled up.
Everyone has good days and bad days, it’s not always plain sailing. The bad days make the good days worth it, though.
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